As i looked through the love messages Adil sent me in the past...meaning the first 5 months of our relationship. I keep remembering how much fun we used to have. Smsing, calling, and meeting up. But it all ended... Remembering those memories, i can truely say that i miss it...100% missing it
I mean, we used to be smsing nonstop daily...he would also tell me wad he was going to do and stuff... unimportant or not, he would tell me everything. He would sms "morning" or "good night, sweet dreams". But now, it's all silence...
He wouldn't even sms me if i don't sms him first. Yes, i've tried...
I din sms him the whole day...nt even a single sms from him... and i seriously can't take it anymore!
And even though he does sms, he'll only reply to a number of smses..i think about 5 or 6 and then won't ever reply...until late at night or the next day.
Today so far, i only had 5 replies from him. grr..it just makes me so mad...

AHH!! i can't take it anymore...last time, he would sms "i love you" or "i miss you" or smth like that but now, he doesn't even do it anymore... He didn't even reply to my last "i love you" sms... sigh...

I really feel like ending the relationship with him because, i feel like im always getting hurt over and over again...
Yes! Adil did apologise for the smsing thing...but the next day, the same thing happens again!... And sometimes, i don't feel like accepting his sorries because i know it's just going to happen again and again.
But that is being so unfair to him... and even if i do break up with him, im only going to break my own heart...including his....

I really don't know what else to do other than wish for things to get better between 2 of us
wishes :

1. I wish that he sees this post and know how much i am really hurting because i can't tell him this face to face....


2. I wish he would go back to how we chatted on the first few months of our relationship. And having no convo topic is not an excuse!


3. He would tell me where he is, what he is doing and bla bla bla....i need to know where he is...


4. He would tell me everything....important or not...

Well so far that's it...
sigh!...
But i also have 1 question for Adil..... Is this your way of breaking up?
Losing contact till there is almost no feelings between us....coz they usually say these types of break ups are painless....but to me..it hurts so much.....Whatever happened between us??

I am going to cry my heart out.....