Well, im single again.
Adil said he couldn't do this relationship.

I kind of expected this though. But it doesn't mean i wasn't hurt. Yes, i did cry, and im gonna be emo for a while. But im going to try and forget him, and live my life, and be happy.

No, i didn't protest when he asked for the break up, reason, he wanted this. And i don't think i can change his mind. So, might as well accept it ryt? He thought i took it quite well, =]. My acting ain't that bad after all. haha.

Who cares right?. Plenty of fish in the sea. So i decided, this lil situation would not put me down. Im a strong and independent girl. At least i think i am. =]

But there's no doubt, that i will miss Adil. I still love him and no one could ever replace him. But, im just going to move on. Hope he enjoys his life being single =]...find ur love out there ok, Adil? She's waiting for you, somewhere.

*i know guys, im just lying to myself with all this "Im happy" crap. But there's nth else i can do. And like i said, i would not let this situation drag me down. It's his loss.*

Here's the convo we had :
1:47pmAdil
i cant do this....

1:48pmDenice Erycka
do wat?

1:48pmAdil
this relationship.....

not while i haf all these other problems.....

1:48pmDenice Erycka
ok then

want to end it?

1:49pmAdil
kind of....

im srry....

1:49pmDenice Erycka

it's ok =]

1:49pmAdil
i just need time to reflect first....

.....

dun wait for me....

1:49pmDenice Erycka
sure

1:49pmAdil
-_-

ur taking this better than i expected

1:50pmDenice Erycka
even if i ddnt take this well

i cnt change ur mind now can i

so yea

bye then

1:51pmAdil
....

im really srry if i hurt u....

1:52pmDenice Erycka
yea....

1:52pmAdil
still friends?

1:52pmDenice Erycka
y not?

1:53pmAdil
ok...

well then....

1:54pmAdil
see u around....

Goodbye Adil, It was fun while it lasted.

Bonding with Wan yi and Kunqin, that was very fun Don't forget to bring bread to school on monday. IF we are really going to do a group ritual thingy..haha, that would be super cool

Anyways, in school we had 2 tests. A-math and Physics.
During A-math, we pretty much wasted 5 mins sweeping the damn floor. Tests are more important and cleanliness Ms Ng! DUH!!
So we practically had, 40 mins to do the test. Not enough time. Alot of people said that they manage to complete about 3 - 4 questions. and there were 6 questions in all!... Who cares yea, we'll all fail if Ms Ng keeps teaching us this way.

Then comes recess, i didn't eat anything. haha! I was broke. Then the discussion of bringing bread to school every monday came into the subject. It seemed like a good idea at first. =] Not sure how many of us would do it though. Im doing it! =]

Then Comes Free period. Zul and Benjamine kept sending songs. Mainly Zul. And mainly the song New divine - Linkin Park. yeap! nice song.
But i find it a little irritating, blame the radio for playing it over and over again.

Then comes Physics. Didn't study for the test. But it was not that bad. But Zul asked for the first answer. lols. (Renee, dude, why do u guys keep saying that Zul is my bf????)

Then comes assembly, we stayed in class. Boring!!. I designed a few crayons and played with Keonah's psp. ( Hari let me use it!). Kinda fun =]

After school, Wan yi, Kunqin and Justina followed eachother to the Bus interchange. But as we went to the bus stop. Wan yi remembered that she doesn't have money. So, i borrowed $o.50 from Anis( sorry if i misspelled)..

Then we were off to the interchange. Justina went home after the bus reached the bus interchange though. JUSTINA! YOU DIDN"T EVEN SAY GOODBYE!! lols

Then Kunqin, Wan yi and me went to my place by bus. OMG, long ride home. And i actually slept in the bus. wahaha.
When we reached home, i started cooking Honey roasted wings, for us to eat. yeap!. When it was done, we ate. =] kunqin, u ate the least. wahah.

after that, we watched a few MJ music video's and off we went to eastpoint for fun peace joy and laughter.

We wondered around that place for about, 2h. =] and i found out things that were quite unbelievable. For what u guys said about ZHI QIN, well, fine...i believe that.

But wan yi!, for wat u said, i dnt even know if i should believe it. It would be cool if it was true though =]

Kunqin was being picked up by her dad, while i accompanied Wan yi to the bus stop. Waited and chat with her till her Bus came.

After that, i went home. BIG dinner tonight. I have Chicken adobo, sandwich ( a big one, from chippy) and aunty anne =]

Amazingly, i finished it all! ya!! If i don't get tall, im so going to get pissed off, coz that means im getting fat..wahaha

I spent the whole night trying to redo Ruswins poster. Urgh! painting is fun. wahaha. Kevin's beautiful handwritting survived the paint. So, im quite happy about that. But it's turning out great. i guess.

that's all for now guys...
Have fun with ur lifes. BABU!!

OH MY FUDGE!!!!! OH MY GULAY!!! OH DEAR GOD HELP ME!!!

I totally forgotten all about the online test that i was suppose to do after school today!...Ahh!, I was spending too much time thinking on our new French project. We have to make a poster and make a video presentation about saving the earth.

And Ruswin, Gurwin and me could only meet up twice...before we actually have to do give it to the teacher to grade. Stress ryt!..urgh!...Meeting up 2 times to complete a project isnt gonna do much good!. I was actually suppose to meet them today. or was it another day...but still....In the end they couldnt meet up with me. So i went home and did some translations and stuff....Of course after relaxing for a while with wan yi to TM1...window shopping calms me down. yea!.

But now, im so stressed ryt now. I mean, how can we even make a documentary, even speaking in fluent french is tough for us. I dnt think we would get alot of marks for this Project guys... What is more...I skiped a test which would be included in the CA marks!!..GOD!!! Let's just hope Ms dawn can accept my french project excuse because...i wnt lie to cover it up. Might as well tell the truth ryt.

Urgh...i only remembered about the test after Shahib asked, " Any tests coming up?" CRAP!!!
Im so totally screwed with Ms dawn!! Expecially with 2 classes of A-maths tmr.

Bkt hnd ko naalala. Paano ko nakalimutan. Tanga ko!!! ahhh!!!! * dudes, the grammer might be off quite abit...but who cares*

Translation: "Why did i forget!?? How is it possible that i forget about a test!!???"

okies...im going back into panic mode people....Babu!!

Today was fun. At least 3/4 of the day that is. The end of the day ended with a really bad stomach cramp. OUCH!! haha

OK. School was a total bust. We ddnt really learn much today. Yeap yeap. It's was more of fun. Because im with my group of friends...haha =]. After school, Kunqin, Renee, Wan yi and me went to Renee's place first. Because she has to change. While we waited for Renee to return downstairs. We talked about Michael Jackson. haha.
OK, at first we were talking about where to buy water and junk, then went on to the topic of schools and things.

Then we went off to Tampines to catch a movie. But not after we each said lame jokes to each other...haha. Surprisingly, we ran into Ying ying and co.
They watched Harry potter at 1:45..while we watched it at 2:30.
And i can say, the ending is like super plain...haha. just the 3 of them staring out the window. haha =]

But seriously, it's still a nice show.

Like i said, the day ended with a huge stomach crap. I think there was smth in the popcorn or smth. Or the roti. urgh...haha
I am so going to miss blake when he leaves for Australia. 14 days and counting...Im gonna miss you buddy

He is ALWAYS watching us. Even if you think his not by your side. He knows what your going through.

Nice picture no? hehe.
Well guys, I can truely say that the phrase, "You friends are like your gaurdian angels" Is a very true phrase. Without my friends, I sure i would have commited suicide by now.

U guys taught me how to ignore the comments of wat others say about me. Like Jing jie for example. He can call me black dog for all he wants and i dnt really give a damn about it anymore.
Friends has been my gaurdian angels ever since. Thanks for always being there and listening to my problems guys. Even though alot of things i say is, " i, me, myself,ect." haha. Sorry if u kinda find that irritating too

There wasn't much about school. Other than NO SS for the whole week!...But people, Don't forget to bring your files on Wednesday. And be prepared for the A-math test too kay? Wish all of you good luck!

I really wanna thank...Adil,Esther, Gayatri, Kevin, Jonathan, Wan yi, Renee, Kunqin, Blake, Ruswin, Gurwin, Mitu, Cherie, Shahib, Jessah,ect....
Without whom, i will not be who i am today..Dnt knw if that's a good thing though..haha

Nice speach...wahahah!
Anyways, babu people!

He is ALWAYS watching us. Even if you think his not by your side. He knows what your going through.

Nice picture no? hehe.
Well guys, I can truely say that the phrase, "You friends are like your gaurdian angels" Is a very true phrase. Without my friends, I sure i would have commited suicide by now.

U guys taught me how to ignore the comments of wat others say about me. Like Jing jie for example. He can call me black dog for all he wants and i dnt really give a damn about it anymore.
Friends has been my gaurdian angels ever since. Thanks for always being there and listening to my problems guys. Even though alot of things i say is, " i, me, myself,ect." haha. Sorry if u kinda find that irritating too

There wasn't much about school. Other than NO SS for the whole week!...But people, Don't forget to bring your files on Wednesday. And be prepared for the A-math test too kay? Wish all of you good luck!

I really wanna thank...Adil,Esther, Gayatri, Kevin, Jonathan, Wan yi, Renee, Kunqin, Blake, Ruswin, Gurwin, Mitu, Cherie, Shahib, Jessah,ect....
Without whom, i will not be who i am today..Dnt knw if that's a good thing though..haha

Nice speach...wahahah!
Anyways, babu people!

He is ALWAYS watching us. Even if you think his not by your side. He knows what your going through.

Nice picture no? hehe.
Well guys, I can truely say that the phrase, "You friends are like your gaurdian angels" Is a very true phrase. Without my friends, I sure i would have commited suicide by now.

U guys taught me how to ignore the comments of wat others say about me. Like Jing jie for example. He can call me black dog for all he wants and i dnt really give a damn about it anymore.
Friends has been my gaurdian angels ever since. Thanks for always being there and listening to my problems guys. Even though alot of things i say is, " i, me, myself,ect." haha. Sorry if u kinda find that irritating too

There wasn't much about school. Other than NO SS for the whole week!...But people, Don't forget to bring your files on Wednesday. And be prepared for the A-math test too kay? Wish all of you good luck!

I really wanna thank...Adil,Esther, Gayatri, Kevin, Jonathan, Wan yi, Renee, Kunqin, Blake, Ruswin, Gurwin, Mitu, Cherie, Shahib, Jessah,ect....
Without whom, i will not be who i am today..Dnt knw if that's a good thing though..haha

Nice speach...wahahah!
Anyways, babu people!

Sherrie Loe.
Who is she? I have no clue. haha. She is Adil's sisters friend.

I edited her photo today. I was super bored at home eh. ok. so in this photo, i took out a girl which was actually behind Sherrie. And i also took out the extra things...*ahem* First time trying to do that.

Anyways.
Why was i bored today? Because i had no French tuition. haha.

i went to church today. Father angel was right. Filipinos should comunicate more to other filipinos...i mean, like smile at them or smth..hhaha. That's wad we always do anyways. I'll try do that again. wahhaa.

okie dokie. My hair was cut. ARGH!!! it's supposed to be longer . It's short now!!!! AHHHH!!!Anyways, had another boring day today. My savings went from $60 to $30.
So sad. blech!!!
I went to wan yi's place and we hung out. that's all that's interesting. Thanks for the pic. wan yi.

Now if u dnt mind. i'll go back to whining about my hair....

School was interesting, for the first few lessons i mean. I'm Starting to hare TRIGONOMATRY! urgh! Stupid graphs. Must be super neat again, or else that will deduct marks.

I skipped the talk about, Tourism and Hospitality, to go and get my hair cut. But, the shop was closed. hehe!, longer time to think if i should have long hair or short hair. Alot of people told me to keep it long. hmm....

But im going to have to go tmr. Another 3h of boring information tat no one cares about. -.- .Wonderful.

And, I LOST MY BRACLET AGAIN!! oh gosh! Im so careless! what is happening to me!??...lols

Anyways, i'll search for it tmr. Bro is always with me no matter wat =]. And i finally got my pictures developed. YAY! not bad actually. And i hope i ddnt leave it in the shop.

Well, im confined to using this camera for the time being. Spent the whole day snapping pictures to put into an album. Basically wasting them. haha. But i didn't mind that the camera uses film. I think that Film is way better. So far, i remember we only used that camera once. On my first birthday! haha

I was kinda EMO for the whole day. And i actually slept again. Of course i woke up from time to time because of ppl txting me. But i just placed it in silent and slept peacefully. whahaha. Then i woke up to the smell of pork. sry guys, i don't know the name of the dish. But it was Deleish!! [Deal-ish] mm...haha...

When i get the photoes printed out. Im gonna scan them into the computer. If i ever find the file it is kept in i mean. so yea..TA TA people!

Without You, Life is just isn't worth living anymore

Would you just listen and please don't say a word, just yet,
I'd like you to think back to the very first time we met,
How you felt around me? The memories we shared,
And just remember that once upon a time, you really cared.

Believe in things that are impossible and they will be made possible.

Well! Fancey words, but i don't think i do that as often. But i do believe that i'll get into the best JC or Poly and one day go to NUS or somwhere else. So i went to Cat. class today. My attachment lasts till August 2. wow. so long. And i had fun talking to my Cat. class friends. Rachal, Rachel, Cheryl, Julian, ect.
Gosh! missed Cat. class. After cat. class, all of us took a brownie which was made by Russel. Thanks dude!, best brownies...haha, famouse in the class. yeap.
We should request for them more often. hehe.

My family went to IKEA today, bought a tv console and 2 lamps for me and my bro. I also bought a wall sticker thingy. looks awsome!. My dad was the grumpy pants again. coz he was tired. And my mom was singing, "grumpy old man" haha. Just to irritate him. Nice one! GO MUM!..wahaha

My room still looks bigger than my bro's room. Odd isn't it? lols. Anyways, my mom lent me her old LSR camera. It runs on film. But i like it anyways, my plan was to stick the pictures i took on the walls and stuff. Mostl i want to take pictures with my friends so i could buy photo frames and hang them. Blake is a must to be in the photos. MUST!!

Im so excited to finally use the camera again! it's been so long since my baby has been taken away from me. ;-) Reunited and it feels so good!.
Who else must be in the pictures? Kevin, Adil, Shahib, Wan yi, Jonathan, Kunqin, Renee, Joo Eun, Jessah, Blake, ect. basically my close friends hehe.
I gots plenty of close friends, the only problem is, i cnt rely on 1 of them all the time. like Wan yi, known her for 7 years. And i know that i cnt rely on her all the time. Especially when bringing things to school. hehe. Fact wan yi. It's a fact.

Anyways, remind me to get the film tmr. i wanna test out the camera. if it's not as good as i think it is. Im saving up till $1, 399 for another one then. My mom could keep my baby. I saw a wat better camera than "my baby". Sorry dear!! haha. Electronics are awsome, who could live without it now hmm??

Anyways, i love all my babies( electronics), but i love my dearest bhe bhe of them all, Adil...
Even though ur being like this for abt 5 months or so. Hope everything is alright with you....

Stay in touch.....

In Our Darkest Hour
In My Deepest Despair
Will You Still Care?
Will You Be There?
In My Trials
And My Tripulations
Through Our Doubts
And Frustrations
In My Violence
In My Turbulence
Through My Fear
And My Confessions
In My Anguish And My Pain
Through My Joy And My Sorrow
In The Promise Of Another Tomorrow
I'll Never Let You Part
For You're Always In My Heart.

I really like those words that Micheal Jackson said in the song Will you be there?
Really inspirational.
All the same, those words relate to all my friends, Adil, Kevin, Wan yi, Blake, Kunqin..ect...
I swear, U guys are the best! Even though i feel totally dumb when im talking to Adil, Kevin and Juilan. Im not as smart as them ok....haha.

Today i ddnt do much, other than have French tuition and have another quarrel with my lil bro.. I did find out that he copied my habbit of saying "i hate u" when im losing a game or wadever..haha. I always do that. But i don't mean it.
The computer chairs, my small table, Computer table and shelf finally came in today. So now, all we have to do is pack everything into shelfs and boxes and cupboards and have the House warming party.

I really can't wait till October. Tempted is going to come out then. The 6th book of the House of Night series. Bet it would be just awsome, funny, dirty and just exciting as the rest of the books. hehe. Shahib, come see me one day and i'll lend u the first book. If u get hooked into it like i did, then im sorry. haha

I am but the wind,
No one sees or cares.
When their of into their own world
I am nothing in the world of theirs
Unknown, unheard and Unseen
Like the secrets told into the wind.

Well, i made that small poem during MT lessons. I wrote that because i feel like i am imvincible or something. My "friends" don't talk or even sit around me. I doubt that they even noticed me. This is the reason why i try stay away from Ying ying and co. To avoid this nasty feeling of lonliness. Coz, no one talkes to me, everyone in the group seems to be too consumed with their own conversations, that they pay no attention to me.
This is why i thank god for friends like Kunqin, Renee, Wan yi, Gayatri, Kevin, Ziana, Blake, Jonathan, ect. They are always there whenever i need them, Thanks guys.
Reason why Adil's name isn't there....is because, his to damn busy to even txt me.

Anyways, yea, so i was kinda emo ever since the morning. But all i can remember about today was my mom shouting at my Maid for trying to quit when her contract isn't even over yet. That means we have to pay her out of it.

BUt seriously guys...if Adil keeps this up...A break up is really gonna happen. I dnt care if i hurt myself in that process....i jst had it!...i cnt...i jst cnt take it anymore...

Standing by my phone to see if he replies...and if i do get an sms, i always hope that is was from him...but it's usually from Kevin, Jonathan, Wan yi or shahib...
I always check my phone...i even read our the messages he sent me last time....i really miss talking to him...

But the sad thing is....The love that i have for Adil...is slowly going away.....im sorry, but im just saying the truth,

OK, this might just be me emoting on my blog...but...it's still the truth...
I still love u adil....
But, it's disappearing, day by day....let's see how long the love can last

hmm, time flies by quite fast doesn't it...haha
Anyways, jst kinda irritated now, because of how, girly and such a cry baby my lil bro is becoming...grr! small things and he overreacted just like that. Urgh...so irritating..

So, today was kind of fun. People actually talked to me this time. And my little book kept me company when i have no one to talk to. yea. Nice life hmm.

Reminder! Amath Test on Wednesday!....based on the holiday homework. so all i gotta worry about is forgetting the formulas and Roots...ugh..roots.. Odd, and i usually love to do the hard questions...it makes me think logically.hehe

I saw MARIEL today! yay! a fellow crazy person!. hahaha... I can really say that i miss being as crazy as last time. I'll make a visit to crazy town as soon as choir starts. It's much more fun to be crazy there anyways.

So, today, after school, i went with wan yi and joo eun to the general office to claim their phones back..haha, they were caught. Anyways, the Principal Nagged and nagged and nagged. Gosh, she loves to nag doesn't she. well, dnt everyone do it? hehe

After claiming their phones, Wan yi, Kunqin and me went to the study corner and completed our SS holiday hw. We only had to do 1c because we ddnt know how to do it. So i copied the answer from our best SS student.. YUXIAN!'

ok..total count of Adil's txts today....1.
I remember he said that he would txt me, even if i dnt txt him first. We'll see if that is true now. The other times i tried it...he didn't even send a single txt. 2nd time, he smsed 13 messages...mainly abt MJ's death.
But im gonna try it again....wahaha

Anyways, i talked to Eidrian and he asked what was my first impression with him...and i really couldn't answer that because, i dnt make first impressions by how they look. I think i'll just talk to them and get to know them. And when i do those things, i really dnt make impressions. yeap...nice. I wonder what ur first impressions are with me?..hmmm?
For kevin, i think i know....Extremely Shy! haha...

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